12/13/2021
- Loss -
I just got back from shopping with her, we drove into town together. It's hard for me to stop, to see her as my friend. Not walking around like a couple holding hands hurt. Maybe it's also the security that I lack now, the security of always having someone who catches you, who is there for you. Even though I'm convinced that this breakup will only be for a while, it gets me down sometimes.
I long for love and affection and tenderness.
The most wonderful and beautiful person is so close and I want nothing more than to touch her, to kiss her, to love her. The worst part is: I know how it feels with her, I know how magical it is. But that's exactly what has put her under more and more pressure recently. I continue to focus on myself, find my way back to myself and trust in the future.
