12/21/2021
- lil Peep -
I listen to lil Peep. Songs like "u said", "star shopping".. but actually it doesn't matter which song I listen to. Every single one of his songs creates such an incredible bond with me. I don't take nearly as many drugs as he did, and I don't necessarily condone it. But I can relate to him so intensely on another, more emotional level:
Deep down he is an insecure boy who wants to be liked and loved by everyone.
Maybe it's not even so much the insecurity. Maybe it's more the feeling of always wanting to be there for everyone, wanting to listen to everyone, wanting to take care of everyone's problems, just not their own. He wanted to help everyone where he could. It would be nice if the whole world thought like that. But even if his lyrics are often very melancholic and dark, I always sense the hope and love that he transports with his songs.
He was definitely kind of an outsider or made himself one and I get it.
The conscious demarcation from this broken world we live in, in which most people strive for the wrong things, have internalized twisted value systems and many just let an absolutely interchangeable life pass them by without even really noticing it. I feel him for some, his face tatts might just have been a weirdo. But these people are the ones who will never understand what true freedom means.
If you consciously make yourself an outsider and thus gain distance from all the social norms and structures, you get a much clearer view of the reality in which everyone else lives.
What's more, people like him scare most people. Fear of taking that step because of his strength that everyone else doesn't take because of their own fear. This makes people angry because it shows them the mirror, which in turn leads to rejection.
