12/20/2021
- The perfect being -
Today I felt anger. My boss pulled me from the easy, air-conditioned cleaning job and let me carry mattresses and bedsteads in the blazing sun and in the dirt at over 40°C. It's understandable that you can be angry for a moment. However, this anger is only very superficial and does not last very long. I have the rest of the day off and I spend all the time with her. We're having a good time. In her caravan she gets ready for the pool party.
As she stands in front of me in a bikini, I realize how incredibly beautiful she is.
Even if I look at other women who I find attractive on the outside, in my eyes there is no one who can hold a candle to her. For me there is no more perfect being than her. The party is flowing and we go to my place for a short rest. She is once again in my arms, I give her security. Of course it feels good, almost normal and like back then. Back then, way before everything was fine, not a few days ago when we weren't separated.
The appreciation for a moment like this is very different now.
I now know that it is not a matter of course to have her so close to me. We'll go out again and eventually chat with another couple. He talks about his parents and I'm surprised. I recognize myself one to one in what he says. Just like me, he was brought up to be as dependent as possible. So it's not just me, of course not, but never before have I recognized myself in someone in relation to this topic.
